On Decisions
I’ve always felt so inadequate as a human being. I feel like I want to do so many things, and I have all these roles, yet I accomplish a minuscule of everything. 80% of the time, I’m a goddamn medical student, and I suck at it. I’m left to take on a single role (at the expense of the other roles), and I can’t even do it properly.
I want a life that I can take in my hands, and rightfully call mine.
They weren’t kidding when they said this was a difficult decision. Nobody makes that decision when they’re fucking 16.
Maybe these are dangerous thoughts. Maybe they’re not. Maybe I’m only starting to make the decision.
