June 2012
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THE Late Night Post
Starting off this random late-night post with a happy thought!
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I am actually proud about my driving skills now. I’ve managed to be better with directions too, and I like that I already have a mental map of Metro Manila so I don’t get lost as much, and I can navigate on my own now. I know I drive pretty badass too. Badass enough to induce passenger nausea and vomiting. Uh-huh.
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Car Chase Terror
Mother: Look at my hands, I'm shaking. All my body is shaking.
Son: It was only a dream, mommy.
Mother: He was there. . .his car was parked in the same gas station. All dressed in green, dark green. I couldn't move my head, but i was watching him in the mirror. Oh, it was horrible! His face was sort of erased, but I knew he was looking at me. Two invisible eyes, two invisible and monstrous eyes.
Son: Please stop, you're frightening me.
Mother: I'm sorry butterfly, You shouldn't listen to mommy. Go back to sleep.
Son: I'm not tired any more. I just want to get away from here.
Mother: Mommy needs some sleep too. We've got a long way to go tomorrow. Go back to sleep angel, mom is gonna keep the devil away. Now close your eyes, everything is fine, everything is light. Mom loves you more than any mom in the world. See you in the morning light where the birds sings with the sun, I love you, Sweetie.
Son: I love you, mommy.
Mother: Wake up! Wake up!
Son: What's happening?
Mother: I felt his breath in my hair, he's here. I know he's here!
Son: Well start the car mom, hurry up!
Mother: I can't, I can't I don't know what to do!
Son: Turn the key, please! Go! Go!
Mother: Where is he?
Son: There's a car behind up, mom.
Mother: I told you! You gotta keep quiet now!
Son: Mommy, I don't want to die! I'm so afraid. He's coming! He's gonna hit us. Go faster, faster!
Mother: I can't. Where is he?
Son: Everything is so frightening!
Mother: There's a light. I'm not sure.
Son: It's all your fault!
Mother: You just have to keep quiet. He must be so crazy right now. He is going to kiss us for sure.
Son: Mom, mom. . .I'll be the best boy in the world.
Mother: Shut up! I, I can't drive this crazy forever. . .Shut the fuck up!
Son: . . .Are, are we gonna be OK?
Mother: IT's too late, he was just there. He's always doomed for the cliff! . . . Look at my hands, i'm shaking, all my body is shaking.
Son: Mommy, it was only, mommy!
Mother: He was there, he was just there!
Son: Mommy!?!?!
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Clerkship Anxiety
Getting really anxious about clerkship after hearing about my classmates’ stories in the wards. I feel half and half about starting my clerkship year with the elective rotation. I’m happy I still don’t need to wake up early and I can still do whatever I want to do (Read: Extended vacation), but I’m worried about being introduced to the PGH system a month late. Our...
